Sunday, July 29, 2012

Blessings

“Ask yourself, 'How did God bless me today?' If you do that long enough and with faith, you will find yourself remembering blessings. And sometimes, you will have gifts brought to your mind which you failed to notice during the day, but which you will then know were a touch of God’s hand in your life.” –Henry B. Eyring

I really need to consistently remember this...as August draws near.  Because I am, again, focusing on what I am living without...instead of what I have and WILL have in the eternities.

When Beckett first died I started a journal where I would write down 3 positive things that happen each day because I was in such a dark place that I wanted (and needed) to have reminders that good things were still happening to or around me.  They could have been as simple as...the children ate their dinner without complaining :)  Whatever they were...it was helping me see blessing throughout the day.

I don't write in that journal anymore.  I can think more clearly.  I can see every day miracles and blessings.  Even at this time where all I can think about is my baby...

My heart is aching today.  My eyes aren't dry.  My chest feels heavy.  My memory hasn't fade...at all.

3 Blessings today:
1.  Got to eat lunch with Jed.
2.  Teague was extra snuggle-ly.
3.  The kid's played together very well...wow!      

I miss you my Sweet Boy.


Saturday, July 28, 2012

Arizona Trip: Part 6 (Last Post About Our Trip)

4 Corners and Mesa Verde
I have always wanted to visit Mesa Verde.  I remember when I was in the 3rd and thinking it was such a cool place as we learned about it.  I have begged Jed a million times to take a trip there.  We finally got a chance.  On the way there I figured we could take a bit of a detour to see the ' 4-corners.'  First of all, it was HOT.  Second, it was hot AND you had to stand in a line (without shade) to get a picture standing on the point where the 4 states meet.  But I am glad that we did it.  After waiting in the sun for 30 or so minutes I had each of my children get a picture...I figured we waited so I was going to get every picture I wanted.  The kids had no understanding of what we were "standing" on, all they did was complain that it was too hot to be outside!  BUT all the kids can now say...they have stood in 4 states at one time :-)  





We left that morning late.  After staying up late for the past several nights we struggled waking up to leave on time.  So we were rushed to get to Mesa Verde before the park closed.  I really wanted to hike through one of the cliff dwellings.  Not sure what I envisioned it to be BUT as we were driving to the entrance of the park I thought I would read about the park to the kids.  So they would have an idea of what we were about to see and do.  As I was reading we found out that there were 100 ft. ladders to climb, uneven-BIG steps, some even had a mile (+) hike to get to the entrance...and babies HAD to be in a backpack!  Freaking out that we made it this far and I wasn't going to be able to see this place...we had NO backpack to carry Teague AND I am SO afraid of heights, there was no way I would be able to climb 100 ft. ladders.  Jed was ready to turn around and head back to the hotel when I begged him to let me talk to the entrance worker to JUST SEE if there was anything else we could do there.  Luckily...there was!  There was a cliff dwelling that we could hike to, only 1/3 of a mile, and it allowed strollers (yeah!).  They also had a 6-mile drive that had special, historic spots marked - that drive took 45+ minutes to see everything.  In the end, I am SO glad that I got to see this place and I would love to go back someday and hike through some more of the dwellings.  Great thing was that Zeke (since he just finished the 3rd grade) learned about Mesa Verde and taught us a lot of neat facts about dwellings, he is such a smart boy!  This was such a neat place!  Zee was a little nervous climbing down into the Kiva (but I could tell he really wanted to go down - he has my nerves of ladders) but eventually he went down.  As you can see...I did not make it down, I just couldn't do it.  It rained while we were there and we saw some amazing rainbows - the kids said it was Beckett wanted us to know he was there with us - very sweet of them to think of him there.
 




















**Ain't those structures just amazing.  I am just in awe.  To see the progress of time in their construction is so neat.  Some of the earlier ones were built in 550AD.  It is just crazy to me...I had to tell Jed that I am so thankful to live in this time period, it would have driven me crazy living like that...seriously, some of the villages were right on the edge of the cliffs - I don't know how they didn't fall!**
 Love family trips and especially love when we get to see extended family.  Can't wait until our next reunion!!

Friday, July 27, 2012

Arizona Trip: Part 5

Family Reunion Pictures
The best part of this trip was spending time with my BIG family (there were at least 60+ of us there...which was only about half of us!).  I love family reunions.  Being able to catch up with cousins, Aunts and Uncles.  Especially love seeing my Grandpa.  I feel so lucky to have such a loving, supportive family.  We are LOUD, CRAZY and ENJOY each other!  This was the first time Jed met some of my family AND he was surprised how comfortable and included he felt from the beginning.  It just made me glad that my family can be so accepting of anyone... LOVE THEM!












Thursday, July 26, 2012

Arizona Trip: Part 4

4th of July Celebration!
My family gathered late afternoon on the fields to watch the fireworks.  We got there early enough so that we can get good seats...play football, tag, bubbles (again!), and of course eat some yummy dinner!  We all had a great time being together.  The fireworks were AMAZING this year - can't wait until next year.  I think this has to be one of my favorite holidays!
















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